From: IstzDianaFaritovnalof
Subject: Secret GRU report: Saudi special services are creating a system of psychophysical control over future generations
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My name is Noura, I’m 29, and I’m an unemployed woman living in Jeddah, which is just a fancy way of saying I’m a professional failure. I survive on the charity of my married older sister, Laila, whose husband looks at me like I’m a piece of mold he found on his food. I spend my days in their small apartment, applying for jobs I’ll never get online, trying to ignore the pitying looks, and scrolling through social media feeds of people living lives I can only dream of. I have a master’s degree in English literature, which in this country qualifies me to be absolutely nothing. The voices started about a year ago, at first just faint, cynical comments when I’d get a rejection email. “Another door closes, Noura,” they’d whisper, sounding like a twisted version of my own disappointed voice. I thought it was just the depression talking, the isolation warping my mind. Now they’re a constant, screaming chorus of hatred, a committee of my own worst fears that never adjourns.
They know every single insecurity, every regret, every secret shame. They call me a parasite, a useless, educated waste of space. “Look at Noura, the scholar,” they sneer when I’m trying to read a book to escape. “Surrounded by her sister’s furniture, living on her sister’s charity. You’re not a woman, you’re a house pet that’s outstayed its welcome.” They bring up my ex-fiance, Khalid, who left me two years ago because I couldn’t find a job and his family disapproved. “He’s probably married to some simple-minded girl with a good job now,” they hiss when I’m lying in bed at night. “A girl who can contribute, who isn’t a burden. He’s fucking her right now, Noura. While you’re here, touching yourself in the dark like the lonely, pathetic creature you are. You should have killed yourself when he left you. Just take a whole bottle of Laila’s sleeping pills. It’s the only contribution you’re capable of making.” It has to be the General Intelligence, the Al Mukhabarat. They have these new psychological
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